last night there were two woman on duty and they are all ways worse
midnight came and we started a new year they celebrated by targeting my back to the point when they woke and I went to get out of bed they nearly had me on the floor when I got up this morning my back was swollen and they made me cry I try not to cry because they then try and out do one another, the woman said that it was time they had made me compliant something that will never happen
In the end they backed off because I all most fell while bending over to pick up some thing from the floor that had missed the bin when I went to put it there -
all so I was going to my sister for a take away,
So why am I blogging at this time of night well it is because there are tow men on duty who are targeting my legs with sensation that cause ever nerve to tingle and make my legs jump all of the time while they are doing this they are saying to each other that I can not sleep on the one hand because they have disturbed my sleep so much and on the other hand they are saying that one of them has told them that I go to sleep better if they target my legs with this sensation knowing it to be a lie,
My new resolution is not to response to any thing they say because I am fed up with listening to the same crap day in and day out so I am saying to my self no respond required to remind my self not to respond
then ever now and again one of them will say they are sorry while causing me pain when they do that they are just taking the P when they first started saying they were sorry I did tell them you can not say sorry while doing what you are doing,
I know when I get in to bed that they will target my private part and they will wake me as many time as it take to fill there boots I am now 71 and this has been going on since I was 57 and in all this time there has never been a day or night when they are not targeting me my health is not good and wonder how long I have left, this time last year I did not think I would make it to this moment in time but hear I am fighting on,
they all so keep saying that I have never begged them to stop what would be the point they would only get off on it,
when they were causing me pain to my back this morning the kept saying I was putting on the pain when the truth of the matter is I try and not show how much pain I am in because they get off on it and when one makes me cry with a particular pain the others try and out do them
it is a long time ago now when one of the men said he liked to bring me to the height of pain and bring me down again and take me down again
one of them all so said they were punishing me because they wanted to be at home with there families
Before I moved hear they kept saying they were going to stop but what they did was turn up the pain because know body hear would know how bad my walking was before - what they are doing now is keeping me prison with there pain because when I go out they turn up the pain so much I am in fear of falling and if I broke some thing that would be the end
Well I have had a good rant and am going to try and get some sleep
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